so_shik | Forty-First Spool of Thread-[Written/Voice/Action]

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I...guess I should write this down somewhere before it totally eats at me forever. It's already been two weeks, and I'm still thinking about it just as much as I did the day it happened.

Being in Neku's body was totally weird, but at least it made more sense once we figured out what the point of the experiment was. You turn into what you love or desire the most. Obviously I love Neku the most. But...he turned into Eri. Me-Eri or Eri-Eri, I'm not sure.

I know, I know...Neku says he loves me. We've gone all the way, we've dedicated ourselves to each other, blahblahblah. If that's true though, wouldn't he have turned into the real me instead of her? Does that mean he desires Eri instead? He's never met Eri, but her body...maybe I had the right idea after all. Eri's prettier than I am, most of our class thinks so.

Shiki, stop it. You're better than this now. ...but if that's true, too, then why do I still feel so crappy about all of it?

This sucks. This whole feeling completely and totally sucks.
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[Though the privatized portion of the entry is written, give her a few moments to fiddle and switch it over to voice.]

I didn't really think about it until someone else mentioned it, but it's official. I've celebrated two birthdays here, it's been two years since I've arrived, and I'm not seeing myself leaving anytime soon. I don't think I regret it though.

I mean, I think I've done a lot of growing up in the last two years. I'm seventeen as of a week ago, I've got my own business that's still thriving...well, as thriving as it can be without actually making money, and I've got some of the best friends I've ever met. I really can't say I regret Luceti.

This place kind of makes us grow for the better, don't you guys think? ...actually, now I'm really curious. Does anybody feel like they've changed for the worse since being stuck here? Give me your thoughts, I'm feeling up for some opinions today.

Also, I've decided I'm preparing early for my annual winter blow-out sale. All winter clothing needs to be out of All Passions by the beginning of March. Come by and pick out a sweater or ten!

[With that, she'll just kick back in her shop at the til with Mr. Mew, the journal open and a pop CD playing from somewhere. Come say hi, come call her out on her optimism, whatever.]

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You might be surprised what I can still do. How about I let you in on a little secret? My job is very simple. I force people to help themselves. If they can't, they get Erased. Easy as that.

[ He gives a low chuckle and leans forward a bit. ] I'm here to make you a better person, whether you like it or not. Do you understand your position yet?

Is that seriously a threat? I get it, Joshua.

It's been a threat the whole time. I just thought you might want to be aware of it. Hee hee.

Why are you afraid of moving past this?

Why don't you go bother Neku and ask him why he's afraid of moving past his own issues?

He's not the one I'm asking right now. He'll come later, don't worry.

I don't have anything I need to move past. That's all his department.

Then why do you feel upset over this?

Because you're asking a lot of irritating questions? I wrote all of that to get over it, so really this is kind of your own fault.

But it didn't work.

It worked until you nagged.

It worked because you ignored it and left it to fester.

That's not ignoring it. That's getting it out and moving on.

Except you didn't move on.

Because you started nitpicking.

If you had moved on, it wouldn't still be bothering you.

You realize we're just going in a circle because you won't admit you're wrong, right?

We're going in circles, but that's not the reason why.

We're going in circles because you keep trying to outsmart me, and it's not going to work so you should just knock it off already.

I'm not outsmarting you, I'm proving a point. You're the one who insists on continuing to wallow in your own insecurity.

And you're the one who insists on continuing to be a huge jerk. What's your point?

And I'm not wallowing in anything!

Why do you think he changed into her?

Why do you think Mr. H turned into a cup of coffee?

Because he's a caffeine addict. [ Seriously Shiki have you ever watched the man for longer than an hour, he only stops if he gets completely into something else or if it's absolutely impossible to continue, and even in the second case he still manages to keep going sometimes. ] Are you saying Neku is addicted to Eri?

It's a possibility, sure. Or addicted to the way she looks, whatever.

That way that you look, you mean.

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