Forty-First Spool of Thread-[Written/Voice/Action]

[so_shik]

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I...guess I should write this down somewhere before it totally eats at me forever. It's already been two weeks, and I'm still thinking about it just as much as I did the day it happened.

Being in Neku's body was totally weird, but at least it made more sense once we figured out what the point of the experiment was. You turn into what you love or desire the most. Obviously I love Neku the most. But...he turned into Eri. Me-Eri or Eri-Eri, I'm not sure.

I know, I know...Neku says he loves me. We've gone all the way, we've dedicated ourselves to each other, blahblahblah. If that's true though, wouldn't he have turned into the real me instead of her? Does that mean he desires Eri instead? He's never met Eri, but her body...maybe I had the right idea after all. Eri's prettier than I am, most of our class thinks so.

Shiki, stop it. You're better than this now. ...but if that's true, too, then why do I still feel so crappy about all of it?

This sucks. This whole feeling completely and totally sucks.
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[Though the privatized portion of the entry is written, give her a few moments to fiddle and switch it over to voice.]

I didn't really think about it until someone else mentioned it, but it's official. I've celebrated two birthdays here, it's been two years since I've arrived, and I'm not seeing myself leaving anytime soon. I don't think I regret it though.

I mean, I think I've done a lot of growing up in the last two years. I'm seventeen as of a week ago, I've got my own business that's still thriving...well, as thriving as it can be without actually making money, and I've got some of the best friends I've ever met. I really can't say I regret Luceti.

This place kind of makes us grow for the better, don't you guys think? ...actually, now I'm really curious. Does anybody feel like they've changed for the worse since being stuck here? Give me your thoughts, I'm feeling up for some opinions today.

Also, I've decided I'm preparing early for my annual winter blow-out sale. All winter clothing needs to be out of All Passions by the beginning of March. Come by and pick out a sweater or ten!

[With that, she'll just kick back in her shop at the til with Mr. Mew, the journal open and a pop CD playing from somewhere. Come say hi, come call her out on her optimism, whatever.]

Comments

[so_shik]

Home was...weird up until recently. [That's about as vague as she can make it.] But I mean like...sometimes I think I'm the only one who's really okay with being here.

[markofthewise]

Well I'm probably happier here than I was at home. But until recently, home was in the middle of a war. I'd be happier now at home, because that's all in the past. [Okay so no, he can't really relate.]

[so_shik]

See, that totally makes sense. If home's a lot more peacefu--

...wait, did the war end before you came here? Or did somebody else tell you it was over?

[markofthewise]

Before! I should know. I mean, I was there.

[so_shik]

Okay so yeah, that pretty much makes being stuck here suck more. I guess the only reason I'm happy to be here is because I can run my own business and get practice in before I go back, and the people I've met. Otherwise...I'd be completely okay heading back to Shibuya.

[markofthewise]

Oh, well yeah. I figure being here isn't too bad. Even better if I can take back all my awesome skills back with me. But I wouldn't want to stay here forever.

[so_shik]

Well I mean...if we lose our memories of this place when we go back, do you think we lose skills?

[markofthewise]

Well, I kinda figured we did. I mean, if we forget everything else and go back to our original ages..

[so_shik]

Damn it. There has to be a way to keep everything. Maybe...maybe we just haven't figured it out yet.

[markofthewise]

If there is, the Malnosso probably have already got it figured out. Not much chance of them telling us how.

[so_shik]

So maybe there's another way we haven't thought of.

[markofthewise]

Well I'm not coming up with anything. You?

[so_shik]

Not yet. Maybe I'll make a side-hobby, too.

[markofthewise]

Well people I know who went home and came back here and remembered things talk about dreaming about Luceti. Maybe your hobby can be trying to recall your dreams better.

[so_shik]

You think? That's a point I didn't think of...I'll look into it when I run out of stuff to do.

[markofthewise]

But why wait! Who knows when we'll go home!

[Now he's just being mean.]

[so_shik]

You're really not helping, you know that? [C'mon man. She gets enough of it from Joshua.]

[markofthewise]

What? I'm joking. Sarcasm, it's kind of my thing. [And sarcasm isn't as fun without giving someone a hard time.]

[so_shik]

Yeah I got that. Trust me, when you hang out with the people I do...[She just shakes her head.] Yours is just a different brand.

[markofthewise]

Yeah, it's my own kind of Sokkasm, but I don't like to brag or anything.

[so_shik]

I don't think you'd have to. It makes you stand out enough as it is. Any other Sokkasms I should be aware of?

[markofthewise]

[Um. Crap.]

Uh. They just kind of come to me. You can't force it.

[so_shik]

Just checking.

[markofthewise]

I take it you get too much sarcasm already?

[so_shik]

I live with Haruhi. Does that answer your question?