[ there is. and you'll have to bear with him, shiki, because this is something angel hasn't really let himself deal with and saying the name is difficult enough. ]

There's someone else. Or was. She-- She died. Buffy went to high school with her and they weren't exactly friends. Never really liked eachother. I can't talk to her about C-- [ give him a second. angel takes in and lets out an unneeded breath of air, putting his head in his hands for a moment. why it's so easy to talk to this girl is beyond him, but maybe he just needs to talk about it and having an outsider's ear, and an ear that cares to listen, is what he really needs. ]

I can't talk to her about what happened to Cordelia and what I felt-- feel for her.

[ there are not words for how much he hates talking about his feelings, as freeing as this feels. ]